this entry will be posted only when i think no one will see it. right now, i just wanna clear my thoughts..

everybody see me, inevitably wanna know the same thing. how are we? i know they mean well.. but it makes me confused.. am i doing the right thing?

when we were together, the pressure from my parents made me feel extremely cornered.. i want to do well for studies too.. and to me, i can do it better without commitment to him. but now i dont think so. i think i can do studies as well as relationship.. but definitely i cant do it with my parents in the picture.. perhaps i should go underground and in the dark? but not fair to him what..

wants me to be happy. makes me happy. but i hurt him. i want to hold him close, but i'm scared i will wanna push him away again. dont want him to always be there, when all i do is hurt him all along. dont want him to be sacrificed for other things in the eyes of this selfish pig. roar..

thoughts in turmoil.